14/7

"There is no value in the thing if you don't fight for it" is what can probably describe my thoughts right now. I'm done with being the Mr-always-available. Because when you are always available for someone, it somehow ends up depreciating your value. They don't value the fact that you are constantly available for them. And thats why I'm done. 2000% done. Not that I won't put in 100% in maintaining my friendships, I probably won't ever do anything that seems to put me in a less than comfortable position. And probably until I get affirmation that you are worth my 101% or even more, you'll have to earn it. Sometimes I feel being taken for granted.

And why? You initiated the don't-talk-to-me-like-we're-so-close thing and YOU. you still continue to talk to me everyday. It's hard to go on. I might not know when I might lose control of myself. Stop giving me false hope. Just stop.

If I lose myself tonight - One republic
I stared up at the sun,
Thought of all of the people, places and things I’ve loved.
I stared up just to see
With all of the faces, you were the one next to me.

You can feel the light start to tremble,
Washing what you know out to sea.
You can see your life out of the window tonight.

If I lose myself tonight,
It’ll be by your side.
I lose myself tonight...

If I lose myself tonight,
It’ll be you and I.
Lose myself tonight...